Dearest Betu,

For the past month, a heavy silence and pain have stood between us. I am writing this because my words failed you when you needed them most, and I need to open my soul completely to you.

Losing my mother completely broke something inside of me. I felt lost in a dark storm of grief, completely blinded by pain, and instead of leaning on your love, I let frustration consume me.

Betu, please know that this is an explanation of my broken state, but it is never an excuse.

I took all my internal frustration, anger, and helplessness and unfairly projected it onto you. You, who deserved only gentleness and care, became the target of a grief I didn't know how to handle.

It breaks me completely to realize that while I was grieving my mother, I was actively hurting the most precious person left in my life. I am so deeply sorry.

Whenever the darkness gets too loud, my mind runs back to one specific, beautiful day—28th February.

Betu, the entire world stopped spinning in that exact second. I remember the sudden rush of beautiful butterflies filling my stomach. It was a pure, unfiltered moment of warmth that etched itself into my heart forever.

That memory reminds me of who we are before the grief clouded my vision. You are my safe harbor, Betu.

Even when I pushed you away with my mood swings and quiet anger, you stayed in my thoughts. Your presence is the only thing that brings peace to my restless mind.

Losing my mother was the hardest thing I've faced, but losing you because of my own actions is a pain I cannot bear to imagine.

I don't just want to say sorry; I want to earn your smile back. From this day forward, I promise you:

• To Communicate: I will talk to you about my pains instead of shutting you out or acting out in frustration.

• To Protect You: Even from my own bad days. You will never have to bear the brunt of my storms again.

• To Cherish You: To bring back the version of us that shared butterflies on February 28th.

Betu, take all the time you need. Your hurt is completely valid, and I am ready to stand by you while you heal from the wounds I caused.

I miss your laughter, I miss your comfort, and I miss the way we used to be. I am asking you, with everything I have left, for a chance to make this right.

Will you forgive me, Betu?

No matter what, my love for you will never waver. You hold my past, my present, and every dream I have of a beautiful tomorrow.

Forever & Always Yours...